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emotional surprise -- 2003-02-13 K. and I broke up in November (see archives) because she wasn't there a lot, in a different city, busy with school and not making the effort I thought she should be making, like coming into town and not making time for me when she was there. So we broke it off, more or less mutually. We were both sad that it didn't work, although I think I was a bit more than she was. I since have moved across the country, and am trying to start a different life for myself with a new job. We weren't together a long time, but today I saw her profile on gaycanada (the site we met on) and she has written on it that she's seeing someone. I didn't realize I would be so sad about this. How can she be seeing someone when we had so much in common, liked each other's personality, looks, had the same education, same age, everything!? How come she can make it work with this person but she couldn't make it work with me? She sent me a Christmas card and gift, and it was beautiful. She apologized for not being more attentive when we were together. I thought how wonderful it was, and kept the card where I could see it. She talked about going to Toronto to study, and who knows what would happen in the future with us. And I thought how nifty that would be, especially since I know I'll be back on the mainland soon enough. The weird thing is, I thought I was fine with us being broken up. I thought that I had moved on, physically if not emotionally. I guess I always thought she would finish her program and we would get back together.
Norway trip - 2004-07-08 |
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