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bad tummy -- 2002-10-28 ugh. I just spent the last day and a half with food poisoning. I ate pizza at this crappy little place by my work on Saturday, and it nearly killed me. The worst thing is, it tasted *fabulous*! It did not, however, taste fabulous coming back up. My body is so sore now, my stomach muscles ache, and I'm completely tired. Yesterday I nearly fainted I was so weak, probably from not having any food in my stomach for such a long time. Today I kept down toast and gingerale, and Karmen brought over a care package of some soup and jello, which I'm going to attempt to eat later. I was sure I was going to break up with Karmen, tell her it wasn't working for me, that I needed more out of a relationship than I was getting from her. But my thought process was flawed. I forgot to see if there was some sort of middle-ground, like talking to her first, seeing if she felt the same way, if she knew what my needs were. She's not a mind reader, right? I have to tell her what I need in order to get it. So this morning we had a really good, in person, talk. We held hands and just talked about where we were headed. I told her I was disappointed in how things were going, that I was seeing even less of her than I expected, that I needed to go on dates and be romantic. I mean, it was feeling like we were just friends. And she was receptive! She apologized for being non-existent the past week or so, and for cancelling our date to the dance. We talked a bit more about scheduling, and how it was going to work. I don't want her to apologize really, I just want her to put me as a priority, to not have to "schedule me in". She said that she hated that, I was so glad to hear. So, we are going to give it another shot. And now at least she knows that I want things to change, so if it doesn't work, then I will know that we both gave it another chance. Other than that, not much new. I've been sleeping a lot today, I'm pretty weak, but I wanted to go outside, get some fresh air, and go to the library to check my email. I hope you are all doing well!
Norway trip - 2004-07-08 |
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